It began as a passion project to try and ease my stress…

… and I needed something different, something special and unique, for my daily journaling ritual that I’d kept going for over 15 years.

For a long time I couldn’t see how my life had become so hard.

I got to thinking that I had simply studied the wrong thing at uni and the lack of a six-figure income year-in-year-out, was the reason why I just couldn’t establish lasting peace in my life.

I was labelled “arrogant”, “selfish” and “useless”… even though every night, over many long and hard years, I slept on a bed of humility as a commission-only software salesman.

And the skill and connections I built doing that landed me a university lecturing position… which ultimately led me to becoming a defense consultant working on the airforce’s fighter jets.

I made good coin, enough to put my kids into private school - but it still wasn’t good enough.

Out and about, I was the picture of an accomplished pro.

Behind the scenes… constant chaos, shellshock, the fog of war.

It was like fighting the Hydra. For every head I lopped off, three more grew back in its place.

And to make matters so much worse, I had been programmed that a man had to be a man… you had to fix the problem, bear the burden, step up to the plate, fall on your sword and do the right thing.

That little ditty kept me caught in the carousel for quite a while… and I hate to say it, I almost lost myself.

But despite it all, something deep in my spirit just wouldn’t give up

I knew, I just knew, that it wasn’t meant to be like this.

I was doing everything, I was at my wit’s end…

… but that damned wolf kept coming through the door… closer and closer and closer…

Something was very wrong.

So, I began to think, to fight back with my mind, I began to connect the dots and then…

… all hell broke loose!